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Navigating Faith and Academia: A Theologian’s Journey in RCIA

As I participate in the Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults (RCIA), I find myself at a unique intersection of deep faith and academic rigor. With a Master’s in Biblical Studies, my journey into the Catholic Church has been enlightening but, at times, perplexing.

Recently, during an RCIA session, I candidly shared my experience with Father. I expressed my love for the Church but also my struggle with the curriculum, which I found, frankly, quite boring. I mentioned my need for rest and healing from past traumas, hoping for understanding. His unexpected response was, “No! No! I will talk to God, because you need to be in the Catholic Church and to be able to take communion.”

In that moment, I felt a mix of admiration and frustration. While I respect his authority as a priest, his insistence highlighted a deeper, often unspoken hierarchy that permeates religious spaces. The idea that communion—the essence of divine grace—could be confined to a specific ritual and institution felt limiting.

When I challenged him, saying, “I am going to sound like a petulant child, but you don’t outrank God,” it marked a pivotal moment for me. Father then took my hand, leading me back to class and insisting, “It doesn’t matter if you find this boring; you need to be here.' then to the group  'Ask your questions, and this lady right here is a theologian; she can help!'”

While I appreciate his intentions, I feel stifled. Why is there such a strong push to conform to a path that doesn’t resonate with my journey? It’s frustrating to hear stories of others—like Scott Hahn—who encountered the priest just a few times and were seamlessly welcomed into the Church. 

This leaves me in a quandary: Should I continue in a process that feels limiting, or do I step away entirely? The temptation to walk away is strong in moments of frustration, but I know that leaving isn’t the solution.

I desire to be part of a community that encourages questions, challenges norms, and fosters growth—not one that insists on conformity for the sake of tradition. As I move forward, I will voice my frustrations and encourage dialogue, hoping to carve out a space where my theological insights can coexist with the communal experience of faith.

Navigating this journey is undeniably challenging, but perhaps it’s in this discomfort that true growth lies. I remain committed to exploring my faith, even as I grapple with the complexities of a system that often feels at odds with my understanding of God. In this process, I hope to find not just answers, but a deeper connection to a community that truly embraces the journey of faith in all its forms.

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